i'm scared
all the time
all the time
i'm terrified
i'm shaking
i'm sweating
i'm tossing and turning at night
i'm grinding my teeth
i'm clutching my pillow
this sick feeling is always swimming around inside of me
no butterflies, just anxiety
always anxious
always paranoid
always doubtful
i can't trust
i can't let go
i can't open up
one step forward
two steps back
going round in circles
going nowhere
not moving
and i don't know what to give you
because i don't know what you want
you take a little and give even less back
you never talk, you always ask
but you never ask the right questions
you don't want out but you're not all in
"maybe"
"kind of"
"i don't know"
i do know
and your beauty hides all your flaws
blinding me from the truth
your smile shielding me from the pain
but i see your eyes and they speak so loudly i can't ignore them anymore...
and i'm scared
all the time
all the time
