So I've uploaded a video today. I'm quite proud of it because I do think that my vlogs are improving with every one I make. Also, my laptop screen has decided to go a bit crazy so I've been using my sister's MacBook Pro for the last week and just used iMovie for the first time today. I think I've actually got the hang of it now - well, enough to be able to use basic editing. Having said that, I spent 80% of the video with my head too far down in the frame so I look a little bit odd. I couldn't be bothered to film the whole thing again so you'll have to forgive me - I won't let it happen again. It's funny how I'm talking to "you" when I have zero followers at the time of this post. Hopefully someone will get to read this, haha.
In my video, I discuss how I find sometimes that the weather reflects my mood and the emotions I'm feeling at the time. I'm sure this is the case for millions of people and I just thought I'd mention it because it was overcast today, and for the first time in a long time, I was in a good mood despite the weather. I think I should mention though that you must remember that I live in a city where we only get about a weeks worth of cloudy weather in a year, so don't assume I spend half my life wallowing in self pity. The fact that we are blessed enough to receive such a vast amount of sunshine might be the reason why I seem to be in a good mood almost everyday - or maybe I'm just a naturally cheery person. All I know is that, when it is overcast, those are the days I usually feel sad or down, and that's before I even find out what the weather's like outside which is why I like to think that the weather is reflecting my emotions rather than me reflecting the weather. I've always wondered what the literary term for this is - it's not quite pathetic fallacy because I'm not personifying the weather or giving it human characteristics, I'm just acknowledging that the weather is matching how I feel in that I'm associating sadness with clouds and happiness with sunshine. My GCSE English teacher once used the term 'elemental empathy' to describe this once and it's stuck with me ever since. In fact, that has become one of my favourite phrases of all time. That woman was (still is) brilliant. I remember her banning the use of the words 'very', 'also', 'a lot', 'big', 'small' and 'nice'. Let's not go off topic though. Maybe the weather actually has no real effect on my mood whatsoever - we'll certainly find out when I move to Scotland in September.
Another thing I talked about was my stupid, crazy, irrational fear of the most unlikely things happening to me when I'm performing everyday normal activities. I'm not making these things up, I actually think about things like this all the time - I can't help it. Ok, I don't want you to think that I'm bombarded with these thoughts every second of my day, it's more like, they float through my mind and sometimes I pay attention to them and laugh at my own incredulity and sometimes I completely ignore them. So they're not really 'fears' as such, but more like 'mildly troubling thoughts'.I just thought it would be fun to share them with the world, but as a result, my friends think I'm totally strange and don't want to hang out with me anymore. I'm kidding - they love me anyway (I hope).
My next video will be interesting as it will be uploaded on Wednesday and I've decided to make Wednesdays a bit of a love-fest really. Lots of love related topics and such. It's been a productive week so far I think. Let's see how the rest of it goes...
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